Wednesday, October 12, 2005
Is that what you think of me?
Okay, i know that from my previous entries I seem a bit urm, No word for it. but I was reading the comments that Pei Ting put on the tag and i just got pissed. Really. Just because I wanna end up in a hole? Jeez... Thanks a lot, I really like being insulted like that. And then pei ting said that what... yeah. she said that my parents arn't always gonna be behind me. I know. I am guessing that she means that I have to learn to survive on my own. And that I can't live off my dad forever. And I can't use his money when ever I want to and that you think that I am just a spoilt lil brat and that I don't know how to do basic chores or how to take care of myself....
You know, just because I live on private property and my father makes enough money for us to live slightly more confortably than other people or that I have a bit more money than other people or that I go to a school which has tuition fees that are more expensiveor that my mother employes domestic helpers, doesn't mean ANYTHING. I bet you all think that I am a bratty lil girl who has everything done for her and that I can't do anything. And i can't cook or clean or do anything for herslef.Honestly, if you really think that, you really don't know me at all.
You know how much I hate people saying that? I could say "Oh Pei Ting, you live in a condo. You are rich, therefore you don't know how to do anything." or I could say "Joyce. Your dad works in korea. He goes back and forth and you get to sit in business class all the time. Therefore you are rich and you don't know how to take care of yourself." Or I could say "Tara, you have 3 iPods. Therefore you are rich and you don't know how to take care of yourself."
That is what you people have been saying to me. Or at least thinking about me. Now you know why I detest you people coming to my house? BECAUSE YOU KEEP SAYING THAT I AM RICH I AM A SNOB I AM A BRAT I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF!
That bites, you know. actually, that stings. I hate it when people say I am rich.
Oh and then Pei Ting said that some people don't want or cannot to fall back on their parents money or business. And now I ask you. What makes you think that I don't want to go to a good school and do well. What makes you think that all I want to do is be happy, become Paris Hilton the 2nd or just be happy and live off my da forever, never bothering to study or doing anything for yourself. What makes you think that.
Did you know that when my parents came to singapore, they had no money. My dad worked in the day and my mom worked at night, teaching at a night school. That was16 years ago. Every cent that was built between them was because of hard work. Because of that, my parents can give my sisters and i comfortable lives. I can honestly say I have never gone hungry. I can honestly say that I have never had to clean a toilet. But I will never forget that my parents, my grand parents, my great grand parents worked hard.
Yes, my family was always well off. My ancestors on both sides were mercents and later business men and now doctors on my fathers side. But they all built up their own business. All of them were given the same treatment. After University, they were all left to fend for them selves. My great grand mother came all the way from Pourtagal , with barely a cent to her name. But, the Jongs and the Kwans have made it this far. I know that I will be given the same treatment after university. And I know that no matter what I do, I
WILL make my parents proud. I
WILL NOT let my ansestors down. I
WILL work hard at no matter what I do, even if it doesn't show. I was given the chance to come to UWC. I plan to make full use of it.
And if you honestly think that I am a snobby spoiled brat, what's the point of keeping in touch? You don't know me anyway. The day I left raffles I was thinking that you were the best friends I ever knew. And that I would never forget you guys. Now, I am not so sure.
And on my use of fuck. If you really don't like it, I can stop. but just deal with it and bugger off. And if you think I am lying in this post, I never want to hear from you again.
9:36 PM